Change

Lately I have been thinking a lot about change... I have been trying to figure out how I feel about change. Change is good. It seems like I spent a lot of time growing up waiting for change. I couldn't wait until I turned 8 so I could get baptized, 12 so I could go to Young Women's, 14 so I could go to all the boy/girl dances and parties, 15 so I could take Driver's Ed., 16 so I could date, 18 so I could be an "adult"... I wanted so badly to progress from Jr. High to High School, then I couldn't wait to graduate and go to college, to really be on my own. Once I was in college, I started counting down the number of semesters I had to graduate. Do you see a pattern here? I realized that I am still like that. I am an impatient person, and "can't wait" for change to happen. But I realized that sometimes I lose a little bit of the excitement of just being in the moment and enjoying where I am. I spent the first couple months of my pregnancy impatiently wishing that I could just hold this baby already. I just wanted to get my cute little baby clothes on her. It hit me a couple of weeks ago that as much as I want to have the baby here, I really do enjoy being pregnant! I love this experience, being part of such a miracle. I will be excited when she gets here and will have tons of things I will appreciate then, but here are some things I am appreciating today that I won't be able to in a few weeks:

• Arranging and re-arranging all the cute baby stuff (which I'm assuming I won't have much energy to do, plus I'll have a cute little baby distracting me from silly stuff like that)
• Sleeping through the night
• Feeling Emma's hiccups several times a day
• Getting to read all the parenting magazines at the Dr.'s office (I know, kind of silly, but even though I don't subscribe to them, I enjoy reading them for free)
• My thicker hair and stronger nails
• Having all the old ladies in stores and church give me the sweetest looks- I'm assuming this is just because I'm noticeably pregnant
• Having a little belly "shelf" to rest things on (ok, I might not really miss that!)
• The small amount of laundry I have to do right now in comparison to what it will be
• All the time Jared and I are able to spend together
• ALL the movements I get to feel everyday from her (even the jabbing elbows, knees and feet)
• Getting to listen to her heartbeat at the Dr.
• Having an excuse to be a little bit lazy :)
• My crazy, vivd dreams- sometimes I feel like I get to watch my own personal movies every night
• My job! (I really feel like I learn something new everyday and I enjoy all the people I work with- I am lucky to have found such a great fit for me)
• I enjoy most the quiet moments when I get to feel her move around and react to my voice, Jared's voice and everything else. There are just very few things as cool as that.

So that should help me be a little more patient, but I'm still very excited to meet this little girl and am very excited about the change we will be having at our house! Then I will post a whole new blog about what I love about having her here!! : )